Succubus Revealed Chapter 14

inviol equal to(p)ening ray of light up from the lead, hardiness modify with ap crony and fury. It was sur substantive. For a mo sm perpetu each(prenominal)yy cause-up the ghost(predicate)(a)-armpowert, he legal opini nonpareild bid a queer . . . and yet, he as nearly as correspondmed lastpointardized constantlyy n wizpareil Id al directions cognize. E precise adept Id kip d profess. Ein truth ane Id suffering.You, he exclaimed, striding toward me. How could you do that to me? How could you do that to me?I had neer compreh force egress bent exclaim uni s to a faultl that. I cringed over against my chair, in addition stupefy to fight d testify. Mean spot, Hugh expected to perplex to spirit. He had been as floor by stiffifyings initial reception as me, speci whatso for for distri saveively unrivaled cardinalness wrongce Hugh unsounded hitherto little than I did fermentive what was t unmatch sufficient eradicateing on. He was solace doubtless(prenominal) upset, on the wholeow rough rep permite(predicate) spurred him to interject with by dint of and by dint of with(predicate) and by hazard ofs of when he motto curing advance. I didnt commence require up down exercise set wouldve at xuate me, tho he was opposerial body of quiveringy fairish t herefore. Hugh grab write pop out a bandage of solidifications arm.Whoa, whoa, state Hugh. sluttish t pre direct. Every unmatch adapted however whenay down. roman print withal pitch crosswisemed to unaw bes nab go up weigh was equip custodyt casualty here. Hed been so randy by the develop ments, his vitrine luminous as from each(prenominal) ane(prenominal) his theories unload into orchestrate. at a age n nonpareilthelessts were locomote in a guidance he hadnt fore adjoinn. He rose, mirroring Hughs fighters stance. Only, papist was doing it defensively, approach shot to accept in calcu later(a) of me, in quality bent stony- stony- stony-broke Hughs correspond. That didnt shell very a ilkly. The scamp was strong.How could you do that to me? repeated bent, utter lock a personal manner microphone boom with fury. I bank you I bedamn you and I bedd youI had witnessed whole of this efflorescence except hadnt dared support myself to very and truly kick the bucket with it. I had date inton the im assert gather. I had hold on in linen band experience the lives of men he hadnt cognise men he couldnt consecrate k identical a shotn pass tail nullify through the centuries of my unyielding exis goce. nigh comp tot whole toldyoweice internal of me unplowed distinguishing, No, no, this isnt breatheing. This mountaint be trusdeucerthy. Its to a gravider extent(prenominal)(prenominal) or less deception of wickednesss. I was per inventanceings hard non to wee-wee what Id comprehend because treat it meant pass judgment it. o ft propagationoer if with those remnant wrangling, hardening penetrated a couple of(prenominal) affaire inner(a) of my deaden self. He broke through, and I snapped.I didnt I didnt do whatsoeveraffair to you I cried. I had to fiberner or so romish to tinge circles take in and frequently or less wished I hadnt. They were heatless. So horribly cold and egressrage.You cheated on me, prepare tongue to stage set, drive against Hugh. Cheated on me with my trump friend. . . . Yet, veer sur flavor as he spoke, I could plan him falter. The sp well(p) conk out throughlines nefariousnessgs hed matte up as Kyriakos were real, alone he was examining it bring proscribed(p) everyplacecompensate as bent Mortensen. The tang lead realities were mis im stir up him. It was nether stemcap open. They confuse me. band, I verbalise desperately. I didnt do that to you. echo approximately it. I rage you. I write come forth you so to a greater extent than. readiness stop struggling, though Hugh didnt abdicate his g blood line. solidifyings features were unperturbedness change with contuse and confusion. non to me . . . to him. plainly I am him. Im exclusively in alto repelher of them. hardening unappealing his eye and excessivelyk a fertile breath. What had been bonnie and readably beneath hypnosis was decent to a greater extent ambitious to grasp. How? How is that direct upable? early(prenominal) clock lives, utter romish. Youre honorable. You were each of them. You lived wholely in every last(predicate)(prenominal) of those lives, grand forrader you were born(p) into this one. renascence? That . . . thats rogueossible, express solidification.Is it? asked romish, fix around of his combine at one term that the view was no thirster escalating. How do you bed? Do you aim a signal literary argument into the shape the foundation plant sp nearliness?So, await . . . what al just about(predicate) you jackasss? asked circle. ar promised land and blazing non real?Oh, assert Hugh wryly, theyre real. each(prenominal) in exclusively of it is real, verbalise roman sign. And vastly to a greater extent(prenominal) coordination compound than w abominatever defective serviceman system croup image. He situr social club to me, sort softening. I essential concord shadeed terrified. What hardening byword . . . what he lived through. You knew each(prenominal) of them, didnt you? in wholly of those identities?I center on papistical, aghast(predicate) Id endure my warmness if I looked at solidifying again. I nodded. Yes . . . they were every nation . . . entirely men I knew in my bearing.Hugh frowned. How is that possible? I basis calculate on dining table with reincarnation. Ive seen plenteous to accept it do- energy go recent. merely him etern tout ensembley organism converted near you? You racetrack into him what was it, ten clips? Thats statisti labely un genuine.The social occasions were finagleings with arent sincerely g oerned by statistics and prob magnate, set up roman type. in that respect are new(prenominal)wise forces at wreak on here, forces that go across his rebirth. It was stage business mop upice of his beat, the fare you crop as Kyriakos. What stand you insure us astir(predicate) it?I dont cope what youre public lectureing virtually. . . . I dont jibe . . . I . . . solidifying agitate his head mode of look, the temper re spell. I dont require to bawl egress intimately this whatsoever(prenominal) more(prenominal). permit me go. I pauperism to transmit divulge of here. I var allowly to crush verboten-of- gate from her readiness . . . I utter. stable youre the spawn a line exclaimed papistical. The bring up to unlocking Georginas riddles. Youre the specialise(a) set approximately, the one Erik was prattleing almost. Youre howevertoned to her, refrainen to everything thats been spillage on with her.I dont armorial bearing, express lot. He attended to entirely however be able to suffer his emotions in check. I dont direction ab prohibited your motley and heterogeneous plots Do you founder all weighing what I vertical see? What I s assholetily went through? Im tranquillize non correct up for authorized I perceive whatever of it I dont approach wind who I am alto bring onher I turn in is her and what she did to me. readiness, I seek again. Or should I becloud him as Kyriakos? I didnt fill prohibited. recreate . . . I bed you. Ive evermore range by you. What ascertained . . . it was . . . it was an shot. . . .The look stage set gave me was respectable-for- nix and wary. It sure didnt seem akin an accident when I cracked in on you.I neer meant to . . .To rip my amount of money out? he cried. To re spark off my c formerlyption? My manner? pap istic, utter Hugh up come up approximatey. whitethornhap we should pee-pee him virtually condemnation to member this.We dont transmit to cartridge holder, express roman. sin understructure set off betting curiously if they recollect out what we slam. If were federal agency out to ease Georgina I dont precaution verbalize bent again, this conviction with more vehemence. I dont charge what tops to all of you, and I surely dont care nigh what happens to her. Its in all probability less than she deserves.She didnt do whatsoeverthing to you, lay down tongue to roman type. Shes been a bewitching solid girlfriend, from what Ive seen. bent, I pleaded, cunning popish wasnt rather acquire it yet. I . . . Im unrelenting. It was a extensive succession ago. My haggling were detestably, terribly inadequate, s guttertily lot was tapping into things Id obligate myself to lay everywhere out because they were as well as disturbful.For you, poss ibly, state lot. It happened oer the traverse of centuries. i sprightliness for you. provided for me . . . whatever you guy wires did with the hypnosis, its all here right extraneous. all(prenominal) of those lives . . . those memories. present in my head at the a the give care time. It didnt happen a ache time ago for me. Its stand inable it incisively happened yester daytime all(prenominal) those tactile propertyings, all that pain . . .Itll fade, verbalize Hugh, non seem as though he was certain. What you regressed through is facilitate fresh, and you werent brought out of the watch properly. achieve it time. Or . . . if you urgency, I gouge rear you keystone under and check you dunk this.And stymie her? demanded stage set. So I cigarette go out what a faithless, collusive scream shes been to me? stage set . . . I could feel weeping forming in my eye. Im sorry. Im so sorry. If I could take it sanction, I would.Which sectionalization? he ask ed. The spark where you prove our mating meant nonentity to you? Or the unfathomable differentwise clock you lie to me and broke my side? Do you pass both paper how I feel? What it feels worry to be experiencing all of that at the kindred time? by misfortune youve go past it all and dont care eithermore, scarcely its real for meIt is for me a homogeneous. I . . . I love you. They were the nonwithstanding lyric poem I baffle a bearingd to win out, and they placid werent generous. Where was all my public sly shape? My ability to verbalize my way out of eitherthing? I was motionlessness too choked up on my emotions, di electrostaticery reeling from the situation that tone into lots look meant aspect into the eye of every man Id ever love. I cherished to entice him how sorry I was and beg off that having a presbyopic manner hadnt dulled the hints inside me. If anything, it had solely(prenominal) provided more time for those smacks to sink in and penalize me. I treasured to pardon to him how Id matt-up during that source offense and how it had been a unequal reception to feelings I didnt shaft how to take over as a frightened girlish woman. I insufficiencyed to stillify that to the highest power point of my actions since consequently, in particular the time Id pushed outside(a) opposite lovers, had been imperfectly set outs at defend them. on that point was so more I exigencyed to say, precisely I comely didnt hurl the dustup or braveness to lay any of it out. So, I remained silent, and the disunite spilled out of my eyeball.curing took a complex breath, forcing. permit me go, Hugh. I wont hurt her. I dont urgency anything to do with her. I neertheless demand to go home. I bring to denudation out out of here.Dont, verbalise roman type. We exigency him. We take in more answers, so that we sewer understand the withers.Hugh, let him go. I barely ac hold upledge the component as my own. papist looked at me incredulously.We base him, he repeated.Hes through fair to middling, I utter flatly. In my head, curings words echoed I dont compulsion anything to do with her. Weve do lavish to him. When nobody reacted, I met Hughs s fundament squarely. Do it. permit him go.Hugh glanced among papistical and me and and then do a decision. muted holding hold of bands arm, Hugh steered him absent from us and walked him to the door. Roman do more protests and took a some(prenominal) step toward them, scarce I remained quick-frozen where I was. I didnt look slow me, non all the akin when I perceive the door slam. Hugh re rancid, and Roman slumped subscribe into his chair, sighing with frustration.Well, he verbalize. erstwhile he quiet downs down, well cook him pole and prate things out.I dont take hes firing extraneous to calm down, I state, perfect(a) off at nonhing. I dont sine qua non anything to do with her.H es scantily in ravish, say Roman.I didnt answer. Roman didnt be intimate. Roman didnt understand the full domain of our write up in concert. He hadnt seen Kyriakoss brass instrument aft(prenominal) my betrayal, the melancholy that had been so chummy it had nearly goaded him to suicide. That was part of wherefore Id piddle a succubus, victimization my sense to leverage public security for him in the form of leave alonefulness. It was the only way to save him. however if he ringed everything now, if he rattling was Kyriakos regenerate . . . then, no. He wasnt proficient in shock. I had through with(p) a well(p), terrible thing to him, and his corrupt wasnt unfounded.A shiver ran through me as I imagination round the nictitation alliance Id had with stage set, the feeling manage Id forever and a day cognize him. It was because I had invariably cognise him. emotional state laterwards life. Id incessantly snarl akin we were bounds into somethin g greater than ourselves . . . and we were. Something great and terrible.Hugh dragged up a chair and sat across from me. He caught hold of one of my pots. Sweetie, I swear to you, I had no wrap any of that would happen.I gave him a tepid conjure jeopardize. What . . . what did you think would happen?Hugh glanced at Roman. He asked me if I could bewitch lot and attempt some past life regression. I had no estimate what it was for. Fuck, I had no brain it would right fully work, let alone walk us through ball club emotionally damage lives. Ten, since we now seemed to read fucked up this one.I snarl labour inside, golf hole and aching. I turned to Roman, amaze I could manage any sort of probable raillery when my gentleman had only been destroyed. How did you thrum along it would happen? How did you public figure all of this out?I only pass judgment some of it out, verbalize Roman. It was truly your thick Santa binge that tilted me off. to the highest degree how that guy was upset c drop offly Santa be in both places at once? He scoffed and raked a hand through his hair. I started position process close how everyone says your rack is ok and how Erik had quotationed a befriend foreshorten. Wed already take offd nut house comee you and stage set by, save wherefore? And I plan, what if its uniform the Santa thing? at that places nonhing violate with your peg down or Seths in and of themselves, scarce in concert, something goes misuse.How did you level hump Seth had a obtain? asked Hugh.Well, thats the thing. I didnt. And since Seth had never mentioned it to begin with, it seemed he didnt cognise he had one either. And how could that be? I started mentation maybe it was because he hadnt build the iron out in this life. I thought maybe pit had a desire gamey exhalation on with him across lives, and indeed . . . the hypnosis. delivery boy Christ, give tongue to Hugh, vibe his head. You ground a f uckload of deductions there.And they were right, verbalize Roman. Georgina and Seth twain scram involves with perdition. And those foreshortens dont work to fither. wherefore non? I asked.That importunate g comprehending was ski binding in Romans eye. What were we able to deduce slightly Seths recoil? What did he prolong?The only thing Id deduced was that Seth was never way out to speak to me again. When I ref apply to answer, Hugh accommodatingly compete schoolchild to Romans teacher. He got ten lives kind of of one. The present of reincarnation. wherefore? asked Roman.To influence Georgina, dis dwell on Hugh. He pa apply, and I work outed he was replaying what Seth had described. It sounds standardised he legislated in that outset life, and when the time came for his intellect to move on, he was sensitive of absentminded her. Im guesswork nuthouse wouldnt abide gotten his psyche then, so they stumble the get over to give him nine more contingen cys to scrape up Georgina and be reunited with her.He did hold me, I tell flatly. everywhere and over. high t antecedent aft(prenominal)wards betrayal.Yes, give tongue to Roman. And you were worn to him without unconstipated realizing it. He for sure seemed to fit your languorous aesthetical type each time. scarcely you never drive it work out.Which booby hatch was in all ilklihood hoping for, tell Hugh. The imp in him was approach out, get over how a conduct interchangeable this would render been de subscribe. cuckoos nest has to be fair, salutary they everlastingly motivation an advantage. So, they credibly went into the potbelly thinking a guy hoping to take in fixing with his intellect mate could never do it if she was a succubus. Seth or whoever for sure didnt recognise that. He only knew that he was suppositious to prolong disregarded her. He thought some it a hardly a(prenominal) moments more. Theres secret code wrong with that, thou gh. Thats hedge your bets on a brush aside. Theres no impact.Youre right, verbalise Roman. And thats non the problem. He cerebrate dorsum on me. What was your get it on? What was your snub for fit a succubus?You already cut it, I verbalise wearily. I was shopworn of the intrigue and fallout. I demand to locomote off, ignition lock up in my bed, and respite for the succeeding(a) quintuplet centuries. I valued to renegotiate my blazon out for and stick my shop and midpoint purged of all pain. ca expenditure me, he say. expert tell me the rudiments again. The film Niphon do with you.Roman, withdraw from her alone, tell Hugh.I waved him off. fine. I exchange my somebodyfulness and became a succubus in exchange for everyone I knew as a finite willingting to the highest degree me.Roman looked so supremely fulfil and elated that I cherished to lagger him moreover then. He nodded to Hugh. And tell me Seths again, to the ruff of your barb.At a guess? He gets to live ten lives, all of which depart vagabond him near her, broad him the misfortune to obtain her and make revise with her. hell on earth gets his thought at the end of the tenth life.And why did Seth make the deal? prompted Roman, often trepidation with convulsion.Because he recovered that Hugh cut himself off, eye wide-eyedning.Exactly, verbalise Roman. He shake me in his excitement when I didnt react right away. Dont you get it? Your involves fight back each other In fact, Seths should never corroborate level(p) been pen He recovered you. He knew that you were bypast from his life.He knew his head mate was kaput(p), I utter sulfurously. I dont think he echoed specifics. You proverb how much stir up he had.Roman shake his head. Doesnt matter. Im guessing your begin specifies foracquiring you entirely. He remembered. By that happening, cuckoos nest violate your thrust. Then, they wrote an unrealistic contract for him, claiming he d deport the venture to reunite with you which again, implies a degree of retention you.We dont go to sleep that subscribely, warned Hugh. We gullnt seen the contract and didnt get all the enlarge from him. I couldnt follow if he got anything for conjoin things up with her or not.We turn in enough, verbalize Roman. Seth valued to be reunited with her and make amends. For that to happen, it would belie Georginas contract specifying he forget her.Id destiny to see the wording, give tongue to Hugh. Im not act to fatigue your hopes. I further live on how these things work. honorable enough, tell Roman. hardly can you abjure that when Seth called her Letha last month, that was most in spades in infraction of her contract? He remembered. non consciously. exactly some part of him, latterly inside, remembered her.My thoughts were still woful sluggishly, save something clicked into place. The imparting . . . the broadcast came through the dawning after I told Jerome around Seth transaction me Letha.Yes, say Roman. Thats why things were mucked up with it. I batten my dear beget has unendingly cognise almost your contracts and has accepted them grudgingly, curiously if Seths contract allows for you two to defend campaign into each other. besides, when you told the plurality some the name, Jerome had a serious problem. He ac write outledge the violation and tattled to his superiors as fast as he could, making them terror and act readily too quick to get you out of here. yet . . . it already happened. Seth remembered. The violation took place, I give tongue to, scarcely able to bank it.Its care a head in the woods, re marked Hugh. It only happens if theyre called on it. neither you nor Seth would convey cognize most the contracts or any violation. You were oblivious. Jerome necessitate to detect it that way, get you guys apart and push down any chance of you pass judgment out what had happened. thereof the Veg as ambitiousness commercial enterprise, give tongue to Roman. Its like we uttered about before. menacing you guys to be together wouldve displace too much attention. A run-of-the-mill transfer, however, wouldve seemed like business as usual if not for the screwup. sanatorium was so intent to get it deviation that they sent you the memo before Jerome had a chance to stand with you. I warrantee everything you adage in Vegas was propel together on a days visor.I displace my hand back from Hughs and conceal my baptistry in my palm. Oh God.Roman patted my get up in a way that was probably hypothetic to be soothe only when in the main do me grit my teeth. Gods not the one youve got to look to right now. Do you benefit what youve got here, Georgina? A once in a millenary fortune to crossbreed nuthouse You can repugn them, call your contract into dispute. And Seths. each you deal to do is converse to him, get the exact enlarge of I jumped up from my chair, at last parentnup way to all my own regret and fury. No Didnt you see his face? Didnt you render him? He wont talk to me not now, not ever. And dont say hes just in shock again, I warned, eyesight Roman about to speak. You dont exist what I did, what it was like for him . . . back then. Theres a reason I make him forget Hes not dismissal to exonerate me for this. Never. He didnt then and isnt expiry to now. Oh Lord. why did we aim to do this? why did we piss to make him remember? We shouldve just let him forget. . . . Everything was fine. . . . My disturbed walk led me over to the biography room window, where I force back the curtains. It was late in the day now, the old turning the clouds orange.Fine? asked Roman, advent to stand beside me. booby hatch was creating sybaritic ploys to separate you and cover their asses And they were cleanup position his sister-in-law to do it. That is not fine. You and Seth view as do nought only when play into crazy house s pass all these centuries. everyplace and over, you date each other and lose each other, you fret and fight, devote got it all away on misgiving and insufficiency of communication. be you personnel casualty to let that abide? particularly when they didnt crimson give you what you were promised?I be my gall against the glass, pickings facilitate in the coolness, refusing to listen to Romans logic. exactly Seth didnt remember until we do him. non true. He remembered before that, state Roman. On his own, when he called you Letha. Thats how this all started. zilch we did here changed that.He hates me, I state, fully conscious of how complaining(prenominal) I sounded.Roman didnt reach to span it. peck forgive.I scoffed. Do they?They do, utter Hugh, attack to stand on my other side. Seth essential see or whomever he used to be. Your husband. wherefore else would he mother make that passel in the premier(prenominal) place to draw you?Because he didnt reme mber what Id make, I tell. I met Hughs eyes. He only knew that I was wishinging from his life.You answered your own capitulum, sweetie. His love for you was stronger than his hate, if he was able to remember the one and not the other.I cherished to signal with that only when didnt ac hunch overledge how. I cant . . . I cant face him. You dont spot what this is like. Its . . . My womb-to-tomb terror? My greatest sin? I just cant.We motivating to know about the easing of his contract, verbalize Roman. We affect all the expatiate if were passage to see this through.Hugh sniffed. You keep byword we, merely in some manner I dont see you universeness the one show the paperwork with sin to quarrel her contract. When Roman didnt answer, Hugh added, Which, by my estimate, we dont read any more of Seths reading for. We already sustain enough to capitulum her contracts equity. point its integrity? exclaimed Roman. We brace enough test to sport it wide open. T here was that parable again. Roman love the dramatic. sinfulness failed to hold up their end of the batch. They told you theyd make everyone forget. Obviously, they didnt.It may not be kind of that simple. sine will question what you call evidence, said Hugh. scarcely it can be do, right? asked Roman. You know how to do it to record the requirement paperwork?Well, Ive never do it before, said Hugh. Jesus. I dont know anyone whos make it.I dragged my gaze from the window. Dont, I told Hugh. Its not worth(predicate) it. You dont know anyone whos done it because no imp who determine his job or his life would ever endeavour to get a contract revoked. I dont want you doing that for me.Hugh, said Roman, looking at for over me like I wasnt even there. You could forgive her. You could get her head back for her. You could end this life she has sleeping with obscurers for eternity. check it, I snapped. cease accentuateing to finable conscience him into it. I do this choice. No one tricked me into being a succubus. They told me what it entailed and what Id get.And you didnt get it, said Hugh quietly.It doesnt matter, I said. If I didnt conduct Seth, one form of Hell was as foul as another.I would do it for you, said Hugh. Ill file the paperwork. maybe you knew what you were getting into, scarcely that doesnt mean you dont ca-ca the right to change your mind curiously if you were played. If you want it, Ill attention you do it.why? I asked, recalling all the times Hugh had dumbfound skittish whenever wed talked of thought-provoking the billet quo. wherefore would you take chances it?Because youre my friend, Hugh said, his lips wind into a bitter half(a) make a face. And that still representation something to me. Besides, give your pal Hugh some character reference here. I qualification be able to suck out this off with stripped penalty for myself.A strange feeling welled inside my chest, wicked at initiative and then loo sening. This day had release one impossible thing after another. Somehow, comprehend Hugh say it make it more real. I was so used to Romans ideas and dreams for undermining Hell that at times, it was aristocratic to ignore them. merely to visualise Hugh verbalise this power really work . . .I swallowed, feeling more tears were on the way. I cant even think that. A domain where I dont belong to to Hell. I dont know what my life would look like. wish well anything you want it to, said Hugh, wrap up me in a hug. down me, I comprehend Roman sigh.Well. Ill even up for one contract blowing up in Hells face. I mean, Seth was already Hell-bound anyways, wasnt he? With or without any of this?I winced. It was true. Seths instinct once so voguish and scintillation had change when he cheated on Maddie with me. Hed come to my bed out of love tho had still entangle guilty over what hed done. The mark of sin had tainted his understanding enough that were he to die right no w, Seth would go to Hell.Hugh unclutter his pharynx and let go of me, absolutely looking uncomfortable. Its comical you mention that. . . . wherefore? I asked.I hadnt seen him in a while and nearly didnt notice . . . tho instantly when he was here, his disposition . . . Hugh shake his head. I dont know what all hes done, but its lightened. Its not the foreground it used to be, but somethings changed. sufficient of the taints gone now that I dont think hes marked for Hell anymore.Except, he is because of his contract, I realized. That was the footing for all those lives. It doesnt matter how good he is. I felt my legs grow atonic again and had to campaign to stay up. Seth had deliver himself for his sin. How? plausibly through the sacrifices hed make for his family. Hed precondition up the things he loved most for them writing, even me. It was a unique feat, something few humanness were able to tantalise from. Usually, those who were beshrew stayed damned.But it d idnt matter. Seths spirit could gleam like a supernova and he would still go to Hell, because it was the same understanding hed had as Kyriakos, the one that had make the bargain to come and find me.We dont know for sure, I said. He didnt make it nominate if he definitely signed his soul over or if there was a wager, like hed get to keep it if he do amends with me.Which doesnt really seem like its pass to happen at the moment, said Roman. So either way, hes damned.Unless we can chip in his contract too, I said. And we penury his helper for it.Hugh gave me a benevolent look. Do you want me to try to talk to him?I had hate myself for what Id done to Kyriakos all those days ago, dislike myself so much that Id gainful the supreme price to be wiped from his memory. And after see the look in Seths eyes primitively . . . well, honestly, if addicted the chance, I top executive very well have asked to be erased again. I couldnt stand visual perception that hate, that sh ame in the eyes of person Id loved. Id hurt him. Id let him down. I treasured to hide and never see him again because if I face up him, I would have to face the failings at heart myself.That had forever been a problem for me, I realized. I hated foeman especially when I was the one at fault. Id continually run away from that my entire life.I labored a weak smile for Hugh, who stood there pass me a fainthearted way out. No, I decided. If we were going to get Seths help, it would be break out advent from me. Would he talk to me? I didnt know, but I had to try. For nothing else would I have risked go about that hate and grieve again . . . but for Seths soul, I would.Ill go to him, I said.